I have my 2 year review tomorrow. Ok, it's two months late, but that's the way things work around there. The retro pay from my raise should be pretty saweet, even if I get the insulting minimal BS they gave me last year. I'm not holding a grudge though. Good thing, right? ;-)
Am I nervous? Damn skippy!
Logic says I shouldn't be. I have not had as much as a hint of complaint from my teamlead since I switched to this team a year ago. She's always asking if she's told me recently that I'm awesome etc. She's the best supervisor-type person I've had in eons. (no, I don't think she'll be reading this)
But the paranoid codependent ACOA in me keeps thinking about how she has a knack of pointing out problem areas when I least expect it. I'll have my newest pet project all spit-shined and be all new-parent proud of it, and she'll say "but what about this?" or "Did you mean to leave out that?" and my pride goes phhhhttttt around the room like a deflating balloon. Not the round ones that deflate quickly and quietly, either. No, this is one of those long skinny ones that clowns make balloon giraffes from.
Yeah, it's all constructive criticism to bring out the good in me that she knows is there, but.... well, my yearly review is not when I want constructive criticism, THAT is when I want the smoochy compliments!
Am I nervous? Damn skippy!
Logic says I shouldn't be. I have not had as much as a hint of complaint from my teamlead since I switched to this team a year ago. She's always asking if she's told me recently that I'm awesome etc. She's the best supervisor-type person I've had in eons. (no, I don't think she'll be reading this)
But the paranoid codependent ACOA in me keeps thinking about how she has a knack of pointing out problem areas when I least expect it. I'll have my newest pet project all spit-shined and be all new-parent proud of it, and she'll say "but what about this?" or "Did you mean to leave out that?" and my pride goes phhhhttttt around the room like a deflating balloon. Not the round ones that deflate quickly and quietly, either. No, this is one of those long skinny ones that clowns make balloon giraffes from.
Yeah, it's all constructive criticism to bring out the good in me that she knows is there, but.... well, my yearly review is not when I want constructive criticism, THAT is when I want the smoochy compliments!
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